Saturday, April 14, 2012

Fear and Trembling

"Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." Philippians 2:12-13


Last week there was a cougar attack 100 yards from where I live.  It wasn't an attack on a human but a deer.  A couple days later the hunting team found not one but two cougers near the camp village property and shot killing them.  This got me a little nervous to go on any runs by myself but then I thought of the time I came across a bear in the Smoky Mountains all alone and I escaped that scary encounter reminding myself of the proverb that it's better to run into a bear and her cubs than a fool in his folly.  I think the same thing can be said of a cougar (although I'm not sure a bear bell works).  It's still a very scary thing to think about what you'd do if you encountered a wild animal yet do we have that same fear when we come across a fool, one who openly goes against our Christ Jesus?  What about when the Bible says we are to fear the Lord?  Is that the same kind of fear?  I do think there are different types of fear, one being the kind that you pee your pants you're so scared and another an awe or reverence like one is before a king or president of not wanting to mess up anything in-front of them (which I guess could make one poop their pants too).  The apostle Paul here is encouraging the Philippians to continue to preach Christ no matter what the circumstance and the world thinks and acts; to not be quiet about the good news of Jesus even if it's an awkward situation or makes someone uncomfortable.  I know I don't want to fear man more than I fear God whether judgement or honor.  I don't want to regret later when we're in the Kingdom that I could have displayed more faith.  There are some people it's easier to share the Lord with and others that are more challenging for me (one for sure is family which we see even Jesus' earthly family had a hard time believing Him during His ministry).  


(Above is a video of what I do at my work.)


In four days I'm off to Nicaragua for a short-term missions trip, back to the Vida Joven (Young Life) group I worked at the summer of 2005.  I'm leading a group of 8 of us and we'll be going to an orphange, serving and participant with Young Life clubs in the cities, and working at the YL camp in the mountains doing some construction and harvesting coffee (so get your orders in if you want me to bring you some home!).  I'm super excited to reconnect with many friendships I created seven years ago and see what God has in plan for not only the 8 of us but all the people we'll be around.  I get a high speaking in Spanish so I'm looking forward to translating for those in my group who do not speak the language, but also to experience the culture and way of life again that opens my heart and eyes to see God working in so many more ways than I can imagine.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Well it's Friday morning here in the canyon and it's my first day off after a two week work stretch.  I'm sitting drinking some coffee on my couch and was thinking about this holiday weekend and how I'd like to share with you all what's been going thru my mind: "What's so "good" about Good Friday?"  Read the message below about the offense of the cross Christ died on and not just thinking about this time of year that a bunny is preparing treats for everyone.

The Offense of the Cross


During this holiday when we remember and commemorate the death and resurrection of Christ, I think it may be beneficial to discuss the death of our Lord on the cross and what that really entailed.  Paul talks about the “offense of the cross,” but I think that sometimes we have no idea what he was talking about.  Thus, let us discuss some of what actually went on when one was crucified.

Imagine with me for a minute that you yourself are a first century believer being crucified for your faith in Christ.  What exactly would you go through?  Let us take up the story as you are being led through the streets to the place of your crucifixion.  You are carrying your cross, or at least the crosspiece, and this clearly marks you out as one who is about to be crucified.  The cross is heavy, of course, but not so heavy as the contempt being poured upon you from many of those you pass by.  Crucifixion was a form of capital punishment reserved for the lowest of the low.  Rebellion and murder were the usual offenses for being crucified, and so the general populace would look upon anyone being led away to be crucified as a despicable individual.  You would face the constant jeers and ridicule of those along the way as you were led to your place of execution.

Then, you arrive at the place of crucifixion.  You are stripped of your clothes, and the soldiers lay you on the cross.  The nails are pounded into your hands and feet, which, needless to say, is extremely painful.  As you are lifted into the air and your weight is shifted unto those nails, you are thinking only of the pain.  Then, once you are raised into the air, you discover something else.  Your position and the way you are hung pulls on your lungs and does not allow you to breathe.  In order to take a breath, you will have to push yourself up by the nails in your feet.  The pain of doing this, of course, is excruciating, but when you shift back down again, your weight is then more on your hands, and so they hurt more.  Plus, now you can’t breathe again!  So you have to develop a terrible rhythm of pushing yourself up and then relaxing again to take every breath.

Finally, however, you get this rhythm down, and start getting used to the pain enough to look around you.  The first thing you probably notice is that you are high up in the air.  Crosses were not little short things.  The Bible describes it as “hanging on a tree” (Acts 5:30,) and the pole you are on is indeed high enough for you to look as if you were in the top of a tree.  Moreover, you have not just been crucified in some out-of-the-way place somewhere.  Rather, you are hanging right next to one of the main roads going into and out of the city!  Many people are going past and can see you hanging on the cross.

The cross was not just meant to punish the condemned.  It was also viewed as an advertisement sign to warn people away from rebellion against Rome.  A cross was similar to a highway billboard today, and was set up to proclaim to all passing by on the busy streets, “This is what happens to those who rebel against Rome and break her laws!”  As such, you as a person being crucified were a living advertisement for living peacefully under Rome’s rule and obeying Rome’s commands.  Just imagine being hung on a billboard along the highway in our day and you get the idea.

But then, seeing all the people passing by and looking up at you, you suddenly realize that you are hanging up there totally naked!  Your first reaction might be to instinctively try to cover yourself…but you forgot the nails in your hands!  Ouch, that hurt!  There will be no modesty for you.  You just have to hang there without clothes in front of everyone.

The cross wasn’t just meant as a physical torture.  It was also a total humiliation.  In all our pictures of Christ on the cross we always have him wearing some nice little underpants or a loin cloth.  Well, those are just to keep our pictures of Christ on the cross from being X-rated.  No one wants to see a naked Christ on the cross.  But the fact is that He was naked, as were all those hung on the cross.  We can see this from John 19:23, where the word translated “tunic” in Greek is the word “chiton,” which means a garment worn next to the body.  Underwear, in other words.  The victim of the cross was not allowed modesty.  Part of the torture was the humiliation of public nudity.

Finally you might start to come to grips with being so embarrassed.  Then you would start to notice that, although you are in the view of all, you are so high in the air that you are cut off from anyone else, except perhaps those crucified near you.  Up on your cross high in the air you almost have to shout to be heard by anyone and for anyone else to hear you.  You might be in everyone’s view, but at the same time you are very alone.

And you start to realize that you are not only alone, but also helpless.  Perhaps a bird comes and lights on your head.  Normally you could shoo it away, but with your hands nailed down there is nothing you can do but feebly try to move your head to get it to go away.  It might peck your eyes out and there is nothing you could do about it.  If a storm blows up, there will be no way for you to shelter yourself from the rain or in any wise protect yourself from the elements.  But if no storm arises, then there is the hot sun beating down on your head.  There is no shade, no shelter from the hot eastern sun, while hanging on a cross.  No wonder you would get thirsty and call for a drink!  Yet if you do so, the soldiers will gladly offer you a drink…of vinegar.  You might be so thirsty that you could even choke that down, but it would hardly be a pleasant or relieving experience to drink such a thing. 

Isolation is one form of torture.  But the ingenious thing about the cross is that it offered both isolation and public humiliation.  It’s a hard thing to accomplish both at the same time!  But, although all the while being on display for the world to see, the victim of the cross was also cut off from the world up in the air on that pole.  The world seemed to watch at a distance, and the cross became a place of isolation.  No one was near you to offer comfort or consolation.  Although you were in public, you were also very alone.  This was another facet to the ingenious torment of the cross.

But as you get used to feeling cut off and isolated on the cross, then at last comes to you perhaps the worst realization yet, and that is that none of this is killing you.  The nails are pounded into spots chosen by long experience, and the blood flow from these well-supported areas soon slows as the blood clots.  You will not bleed to death.  Moreover, the exercise of lifting yourself to breathe, although strenuous, is nothing that a healthy, strong individual couldn’t stand for a very long time.  Unless you are weak or sickly your muscles will not give out any time soon, and the incentive to breathe keeps you from purposely staying down and suffocating yourself even if you tried to do so.  The elements, although annoying, do not necessarily kill, and certainly not quickly.

So how will you eventually die?  Well, if you’re lucky, perhaps a thunderstorm will come up and a lightning bolt will strike the high pole of cross that towers in the air and thus end your life quickly.  Otherwise you may hang up there for hours, or even days, before either sunstroke gets to you, your heart bursts from the strain, or your muscles give out and leave you to suffocate to death.  None of these things are quick, and all of them are certainly less-than-desirable ways to die.  History records that some victims of the cross could hang up there for days before exhaustion and exposure finally got to them and ended their lives.

This was indeed perhaps the most horrible way to die ever invented.  It combined extreme pain with total helplessness and the feeling of being trapped.  Then there was total isolation, but at the same time total public humiliation.  Probably a worse combination of circumstances under which to die could not be conceived.

Which brings us to the real message of the cross.  We know that Christ died for us.  Yet at first this might almost appear to be a gratifying thing.  To think that God died for us might make us think that we must be pretty special.  It appeals to our human pride to think of Him making such a sacrifice on our behalf.  Yet when we realize what death He died, then all such thoughts of pride disappear.  For He did not just die any death, but rather He died on a cross.  Totally alone!  Trapped without hope of aid!  In a terrible agony of pain!  In total humiliation!  And the message of the cross is that that was the death I deserved to die!  It was we sinners who deserved to be up on that cross dying!  For just as that cross was meant to punish rebels and transgressors against Rome and Roman law, so we all had rebelled against God and broken His righteous laws and standards.  It was we who deserved to be up on that cross, dying the death that Christ died.  There is no pride in that.  There is only a terrible condemnation of the totality of our sin and shame in the sight of God.

The Holy Spirit through Paul speaks of “the offense of the cross” in Galatians 5:11.  “And I, brethren, if I still preach circumcision, why do I still suffer persecution?  Then the offense of the cross has ceased.”  This verse contains an important point that too often we miss.  If I can please God through acts of righteousness and rituals like circumcision, then I can look at myself as “pretty good.”  I can imagine that I am pleasing in God’s sight and take pride in that fact.  But if I am dependent upon the cross and the cross only for my salvation, then I am forced to admit my own condition.  I have to admit that there is nothing I can do to make myself “pretty good” in God’s sight.  Moreover, I have to admit that I am a sinner, and such a sinner as deserves the terrible death that Christ had to die.  To many, it is unthinkable that they are deserving of dying such a shameful death as Christ died on the cross.  That is why the cross is an offense to them.  Preferring to think that they are “pretty good” people, they find the message of one dying for them in such a terrible way to be offensive.

Yet that terrible death is indeed how Christ died to pay our sins.  Yet we realize that we were the shameful beings who deserved to be hung up on that cross to advertise to the world how sinful and wretched we were.  We were the ones who deserved the isolation, humiliation, and pain of that awful form of death.

Yet there is another message in the cross, and that is of God’s great love for us.  In spite of the fact that that is the death that we deserved, God loved us, and He was willing to die for us.  What an amazing truth that is!  First the cross brings us to the place of realizing our total unworthiness, and then it shows us that God in Christ loves us anyway.  How we can gain hope from that!  For we know that Christ died there in our place.

John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”  In view of the cross we can better understand what this means.  Romans 5:8 puts it this way, “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”  While we deserved a death like that of the cross, Christ died there on our behalf.  And by His death He offers forgiveness for all those who believe on Him!  Let us learn the lesson of the cross and never think that we can depend on ourselves for our own salvation.  Let us remember the cross, and that we deserved to be the ones hanging there.  But only by believing in Christ can we escape the just punishment for our sins.  Then Christ’s death will be considered to have been in our place, and we, with Him, will enjoy eternal life.

If any who read this message have never believed in Christ and His death on the cross on our behalf, I would urge you to believe it now.  You cannot hope to be good enough to earn favor in God’s sight.  The cross teaches us that!  The only way you can be good in God’s sight is to believe in Jesus Christ, God’s Son, and His death on your behalf.  Yet if you believe in Him, then even now your sins can be forgiven, and, instead of a person deserving of the humiliating death of the cross, you will be considered righteous and blameless in the sight of God.  Don’t wait another minute before making sure that your sins are forgiven and that Christ’s death on the cross washed away your sins and guaranteed you eternal life.

By Nathan C. Johnson, Bible Teacher

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Radical for Jesus

"Then the Lord said, "Just as My servant Isaiah walked naked and barefoot three years for a sign and a wonder against Egypt and Ethiopia" Isaiah 20:3
   How many people know this cool detail of scripture?  Isaiah preach naked and not just once but for three years!  I love coming across places in the Bible that are so not the "norm" and the radicalness of following the Lord.  I have to ask myself am I a radical when it comes to God?  Some maybe might say yes if you compare me to other Christians, but they're not my standard, Christ is.  I'm not trying to say I need to go preach naked to be a radical like Isaiah, but am I living my life for Christ that will turn people's heads? Are you?  I do wonder how Isaiah felt during those three years.  Was he embarrassed? Cold? Hopeful? Burdensome? Eager?  I know I'd have a hard time after three years of the same thing to stay positive and steadfast in my mission.  The cool thing is though my love for Christ can't weary me ever. It's not just a "season" in my life, praise the Lord I've been walking with Him for over ten years now!  When Christ is our focus, when Christ is our goal, when Christ is our sufficiency that is enough to make us radicals for Christ!



    I won some concert tickets to Mike's Chair and Big Daddy Weave last week by submitting a response to what their newest song "All for You" means to me.  The song is pretty sweet as it talks about  Philippians 2 of having the Christ mindset of being a somebody and becoming a nobody and that people of all reputations will bow before Jesus Christ.  Reminding myself all that I do is for Him so why worry about what others think or perceive.  I think Isaiah had this mindset.  It was a fun concert and great worship all around.  I took a friend, Bri, with me since I won two tickets.  We got to hang out with the band afterwards a bit.  It was fun relating to both the band and myself living in Nashville but being from the north.  They're all down to earth guys that have an amazing talent and using it to praise God.  I had the next couple days off so we stayed in town to run errands and hang out at this cool tea shop that has kombucha on tap.  (Kombucha is a fermented tea drink for those of you who don't know and absolutely delicious.)  It was fun hanging out with Bri and getting to know her more plus we got to stay at this ranch that looks out to Sisters Mountain range and meet some baby lambs recently born.
  Work has been fun lately with all the groups we are having in back-to-back that I've been working longer weeks and in different departments like the snack shop/coffee bar, giant swing, and ropes course. I've also helped out hosting the groups which is basically meeting the needs of the guests and having everything ready and following the weekend schedule.  Last week I was helping host a men's retreat and had an interesting interaction with one of the older men.  He actually "prophesied" that I'd "be married in the next 40 months to someone I may already know but he wont let me go this time."  As most of you know me I took it lightly and joked back at him (even though he was serious) and made the conversation like it was no big deal.  I mean really how hard is it to guess that a single 27 year old female will be married in the next 3 1/2 years? Pretty likely for the most part.  Of course some of my co-workers over heard bits and pieces so now it's kind of a joke around here.
  

Monday, February 27, 2012

"When leaders lead in Israel, when the people willingly offer themselves, bless the Lord!" Judges 5:2

So the picture above is of the crazy bunch of interns I get to supervise this year at WFR.  They are an amazing group of people for Christ and I am honored to get to lead, work and live among them.  There are 12 interns (6 women, 6 men, 8 singles, 2 marrieds) all out here for various reasons for a year.  All desiring to grow in the Lord and truth in God's foundation before living in the "real world."  I have had a lot of laughs with them while partaking in various activities (shooting, climbing, running, practicing guitar, Bible study, games, carpentry, etc).  I've also faced some difficulties with them  being their supervisor during work.  One of the reasons I choose to move out here and take this position was because of the ministry I'd have to pour into other believers.  It has been so wonderful to be able to talk about Christ at work and I have had so many opportunities for great conversations while working alongside them, but being a leader still is difficult as being viewed differently or critiqued and with higher expectations or comparisons to other supervisors.  I chose this verse from Judges that is from a song of Deborah, a prophetess during the time of the judges of Israel when there were no male leaders taking the lead, and Barak, commander of Israel's army who looked to Deborah for strength than trusting God.  I'm not saying I'm like Deborah and there's no male leaders out here because I do co-lead with a Godly man, but I'm learning this mindset and attitude of "willingly offering myself" even when I don't have direction necessarily for how to lead each person for what they need in leadership, trusting the Lord that He will be glorified.  I desire to find the balance of friend and supervisor while at work, which is not easy and becomes frustrating at times desiring their respect while also respecting them.  It's good to get constructive criticism but not always easy to take, I guess it's like melting the dross from silver to purify it. I've been a supervisor in other jobs before and know that there is no cookie cutter right way to lead everyone, but it is so great that I know that Christ is the focus as why we're all here and to not look to our own interest but the interest of others.  I thought it was cool in Ephesians 1:9 that God is the only one who can be "selfish" when Paul writes about "His will according to His good pleasure."  If we did according to our good pleasure, it'd probably be selfish and hurt others, but God is perfect and what He does benefits all.  So I need to have faith to what God has intrusted to us today in being faithful, not successful. 

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

"Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity." Psalm 133:1

So yesterday I went in to town (Madras) to meet up with two different families from the Hispanic church I've attended a few times in the past couple months.  Another girl that lives out at camp with me came along so I got to practice my translating.  I was just so amazed by the end of the night how easy it was to fellowship with other believers that I barely even knew.  Lunch was at a woman's home who has 3 kids in college, but her husband came home from work for lunch.  She was so open to sharing about her family and how she came to know the Lord and her reliance on Him and how she's raised her family with Christ as the center.  She cooked us an amanzing authentic Mexican cuisine of tostadas, bien rico!  Later we went to dinner at another family's home.  The wife was the first woman to introduce herself to me at church back in November and we conected right away talking about our favorite christian music artist, Marcela Gandara.  Well her family was a joy.  Dinner was spent talking about where we're from, how we came to know the Lord, and what's going on in each persons life.  Their two teenage sons came home and hung out with us and ended up playing the guitar and piano for us all of Spanish worship songs.  They even got be to play a little and to sing at the top of my lungs.  It was like we were all long time friends just goofing around and praising the Lord, not planned  or scheduled worship time but what we enjoy doing while we hang out.  I cant wait to hang out with them again, it's a bummer that I live 1 1/2 hrs away.  I was reflecting on the drive home how amazing it is to fellowship with other believers who truly have Christ in the center of their lives and thought of this verse of how good and pleasant it is for brothers to be in unity!  I can't say I have that with everyone that professes to be a believer or not, but desire that type of bond.


Friday, February 3, 2012

Jan. 31, 2012
"You have seen what I did to the Egyptians, and how I bore you on eagles’ wings and brought you to Myself. Now therefore, if you will indeed obey My voice and keep My covenant, then you shall be a special treasure to Me above all people; for all the earth is Mine." Exodus 19:4-5

Besides the ability for an eagle to climb to 10,000 feet within minutes, the parent eagle also assists its young in flight.  As it flies alongside the eaglet, whirlpools of air formed by its primary feathers provide the eaglet with additional lift (Character Sketches, Vol III, p171-174).   How amazing is seeing this magnificent creation of the eagle and the simile the Lord uses of Himself to His people.  I always thought that I'd break an eagles wing if I tried to sit or be carried by it but makes so much more sense when we actually see how the eagle cares for its young. If we walk following after God, He will help us and be special in His sight!

Well thought it'd be time for a little update of my life for anyone interested.  It's been three months now that I've been living Oregon.  Still loving it and learning a ton!  I dont even know where to start and what all to share in a short message to keep your interest.  Life on the ranch community is typical I'm sure to most of you: elk crossings, cougar sightings, rifle practicing, dodgeball tournaments, bonfires, 1 min 30 seconds drive to work, to name a few things.  I'm still getting to know all that there is to do out here and each day there's something new.  I went to the shooting range on camp's property last week and shot a rifle and a pistol.  Had a blast and hope to practice so that I can possibly go hunting the following year (I'll of course take a gun safety class soon).  I also went snowboarding for the first time in four year on a mountain; I'm used to the "big hills" of Minnesota, so it was nothing in comparison. I've been consistent meeting with a few women one-on-one out hear each week going for walks to the John Day River, practicing guitar, watching football games, going for runs around the property and just sitting on the porch talking while playing with the many dogs.  It's nice to finally start having deeper relationships and a desire to share lives with one another (still not easy and not with everyone).  I also have been able to attend an Hispanic church when I have Sunday's off and appreciate it very much and have been challenged by the sermons.  Last Sunday the pastor did a sermon on the fig tree out of season from Mark 11 which is one of my favorite passag9es and brought some new ideas to me.  It's also been nice to continue practicing my Spanish and in a glorifying way.  Well while everyone in the community was in Florida except for a handful of us newbies) I got to take care of 40 chickens, 2 cats, and a dog.  Wow was it a blast and have been making a ton of egg dishes.  My roommate just got engaged too while she was in Florida so not sure how soon it will be till I'm either living by myself or find a new roommate (perhaps a dog)... 

As far as the actual work at WFR, I'm enjoying it continually and am greatful for past job experiences of learning to manage people as well as the actual tasks.  It's hard sometimes when people see you as a supervisor all the time both in and out of work and kind of stand backish from real friendships or how to earn respect from those that know more about the camp then me, but I'm learning the balance for how to handle it.  It's such a unique community here that everyone realizes the adjustment and uniqueness here than any other work/living environment.  I still cant complain ever about how amazing it is that I get to talk about Christ at work!  I've been enjoying starting to see the interns realize this and begin more to use that time to be edifying for themselves, to each other and to the Lord.  This group of interns keeps me laughing a lot throughout the whole day, something that I feel has been missing in my life for a while so I'm thankful for that joy that believers reflect on others.   I also got to share the gospel of Jesus Christ with a mechanic that came out when a laundry machine broke down while everyone was in Florida.  It was such a rush getting the opportunity to share the Lord with him and give him a Bible.  I forget sometimes how amazing it is to share salvation with a non-believer.  That being said, as many of you might know I'm going with a small group to Nicaragua in April on a missions trip to the Young Life camp I worked at in 2005.  I'm super excited to go and serve there and help share the wonderful news of Jesus and also reconnect with the Nicaraguan leaders.  So please keep that in your prayers. 

Well that's all for now.  Hope you enjoyed the update.  Maybe I'll send out some pics later.  I love all of you and pray that you call on the Father to bare you on His wings!
Dec. 9, 2011
Just wanted to share a quick laugh with you ladies this morning:

So a bunch of us girls were hanging out the other day and some of the girls started talking about how gorgeous certain actors and musicians are so I decided to chime in and I said, "How gorgeous and attractive looking do you all think King David or King Solomon were b/c of all the wives and concubines they had or even better Adam who was the first created man made perfect?!"  Of course immediately following that statement there was an ackward silence and then everyone kind of looking around at others' reactions and then back to their other topic.  I had a good laugh inside and later talked to a couple of other girls about what they thought of those kings having so many wives and concubines. 

Well hope this puts a smile on your face and a challenge to "make every thought obedient to Christ" 2 Corinthians 10:5

In HIS grace,